More on Judas

I was browsing the web today and found a lot of opinions about poor old Judas.
Many a good Christian feels the whole thing is hooey. Many a good doubters think the text is a revelation. Me? I' m digesting. I started an intense study into the Magdalene heresy a couple of years ago, partly out of curiosity, partly as a way of coming to terms with my own beliefs.
The Magdalene heresy is the idea that she was Jesus's wife and their offspring are the royal bloodlines of Europe. Thousands of words, pages, and Internet hours later I've come to the conclusion that there is no absolute proof one way or the other. The only thing I can say with certainty is that somewhere along the way Christianity got something wrong. The Message gets too confused. Something major occurred around the time the Gnostic texts were booted from mainstream Christianity, and whatever that was an an enormous effect on medieval Europe.
I believe the Cathars practiced a brand of Christianity closer to what Magdalene and a few other followers of Christ taught, but which was markedly different then "true" Christianity.
I think that Magdalene's presence in France, and whatever effect her teachings in the region had contributed to the Cathar's theology but that in the time from her death to the 1100 or 1200's the message, like all information over time got confused. Just as I believe the message of
Christianity today is confused. The fact that the Gospel of Judas seems to connect in somehow (in my opinion) to the ideas of the Cathars is interesting. It intrigues me and leaves my thirsty for more. It is my heart felt belief that Humankind is headed down a very disastrous path, and part of the reason is what I feel is a broken message of the world's major religions.
One aspect of Gnosticism I think is needed today is the idea of male/female balance and intergration. I think Magdalene once represented the Goddess in Christianity. I think
replacing the Sister/Lover/Whore/Mother with only the Virgin Mother concept has greatly
twisted our collective culturally psyche. When sex is seen as more criminal then violent images of war and death, something is wrong. We need the male/female balance to remind us what it means to be Human. We are first primates, second sexual creatures, third flawed, but gifted entities. I don't think Christianity alone is to blame either. The Sister/Lover/Whore/Mother figure has been erased form Islam and Judaism as well, if it ever existed there in the first place.
The Agnostic in me asks the World:

Are we truly better off since the Origin of the monotheistic God?

The Pious believer in me asks:

Is there no greater proof of God's grace then the touch of your True Love's kisses on eager skin?


Food for thought brought to you by a flawed entity....